I’ve got a confession to make

I was lost.

As you may have read in my previous blogs, Kelvin and I got engaged in December of last year on our 85^th month.

So there I was, all giddy and happily engaged. I was so thrilled to get married to the love of my life and the image me of walking down the aisle to meet him at the altar makes me so happy I could just about burst with rainbows and cute puppies with wings! I was so excited to start the wedding planning and make it the most memorable wedding of the year!

Two weeks after our engagement, Hon and I started planning our wedding. From then on I was on the lookout for the best out there. Best photographer, best videographer, best designers, best stylists, best florists, best caterers, and all other best suppliers.

We attended wedding fairs, and kept a list of the top venues for the wedding and the reception. We've started the initial guest list and entourage, gone venue hunting, and then booked the church, reception venue, wedding coordinators, and photo/videographer.

We are also blessed to have the support of both of our families. Tita Kila, my future mother-in-law, offered to make our wedding cake, and give us the arrhae that she and her husband, Tito Johnny, used in their own wedding. Jami, my future sister-in-law, offered to gift us with the services of a make-up artist, and Tito told us that we can come to him anytime we need help.

My own family has been immensely supportive and happy for Hon and me as well. Mama has started sketching a number of her designs and kept pictures of styles and designs that have caught her eye. Daddy has been amazing and drives Hon and me to the church and reception venue, and he also takes Mama and me to meet with suppliers.

Hon and I also have spent a significant amount of time planning and talking about the colors, themes, designs, suppliers, deadlines, styles, and most especially our finances.

As for me, I have lost count of the number of wedding and engagement videos that I have seen online. I have sent numerous inquiry emails to coordinators, make-up artists, photographers, and such. I can no longer count the number of pictures and inspirations that I have saved on my laptop! I’ve created a hard copy of my wedding planner/checklist, and even started my superb wedding binder! I’ve even started doing my own DIYs!

So, for more than five months now, I have been drowning myself in looking and preparing for the best. I would always imagine the look and feel of the wedding day and of the reception. Not a week goes by without me checking my wedding checklist and planning how things would go on THE day.

Then came last week.

Last Tuesday we found ourselves facing a situation. I will not go into the details because the story isn’t mine to tell. But to make a long story short, the situation that we are now in has placed our wedding plans in the back burner because the situation is something that is bigger and more important than our wedding, or more important that anything, really. We are all praying as a family that whatever this is that we are going through will pass and we know that the Lord has a plan for each and every one of us.

When we both found out about the situation, I told Honey that we can temporarily put the wedding plans on hold so that we can focus on and pray for the current situation. We can always get married anytime and anywhere.

The situation has also led me to a realization.

And this is why I’m writing my confession.

I realized that in the middle of the planning, the interviews, searches, meetings, lists, hunts, reservations, and budgeting, I have forgotten the true reason and meaning of a wedding.

I was overwhelming myself in the search for the perfect people that I failed to remember that a wedding is about the union of a man and a woman in front of God. That our wedding is the symbolic ceremony that will start our married lives together. That on our wedding day, I will vow to be a wife, partner, confidant, supporter, best friend, and mother of our future children (yes, children). And that our wedding day, is the day I will start serving my husband for the rest of his life. That on our wedding day, I will cease to be just me and be one with my husband, to whom I will dedicate the rest of my life to. I’ve forgotten than on our wedding day, I will accept Kelvin as my husband, provider, and leader.

I have failed to remember that the wedding is a Holy Sacrament gifted to us by God.

I have also realized that Kelvin and I do not need two hundred people to be the witness of our marriage. And that a wedding does not need all those number of pictures, poses, flowers, chairs, tables, drapes, decors, looks, music, frames, letter blocks, printouts, cards, songs and videos for it to be memorable.

I realized that I do not need our wedding to be the most memorable wedding of the year. I realized that our wedding has to be ONE of the most memorable days of our LIVES as a couple. 

We will not need a lot of people or things on our wedding day. All we need is the church, a place where we can celebrate our marriage, the people close to our hearts, and each other.

A wise woman once said, "The marriage is more important than the wedding."

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