I was lost.
As you may
have read in my previous blogs, Kelvin and I got engaged in December of last
year on our 85th month.
So there I
was, all giddy and happily engaged. I was so thrilled to get married to the
love of my life and the image me of walking down the aisle to meet him at the
altar makes me so happy I could just about burst with rainbows and cute puppies
with wings! I was so excited to start the wedding planning and make it the most
memorable wedding of the year!
Two weeks
after our engagement, Hon and I started planning our wedding. From then on I
was on the lookout for the best out there. Best photographer, best videographer,
best designers, best stylists, best florists, best caterers, and all other best
suppliers.
We attended
wedding fairs, and kept a list of the top venues for the wedding and the reception. We've started the initial guest list and entourage, gone venue hunting, and then booked
the church, reception venue, wedding coordinators, and photo/videographer.
We are also
blessed to have the support of both of our families. Tita Kila, my future
mother-in-law, offered to make our wedding cake, and give us the arrhae that
she and her husband, Tito Johnny, used in their own wedding. Jami, my future
sister-in-law, offered to gift us with the services of a make-up artist, and
Tito told us that we can come to him anytime we need help.
My own family
has been immensely supportive and happy for Hon and me as well. Mama has
started sketching a number of her designs and kept pictures of styles and
designs that have caught her eye. Daddy has been amazing and drives Hon and me
to the church and reception venue, and he also takes Mama and me to meet with
suppliers.
Hon and I also have spent a significant amount of time planning and talking about the colors, themes, designs, suppliers, deadlines, styles, and most especially our finances.
As for me, I
have lost count of the number of wedding and engagement videos that I have seen
online. I have sent numerous inquiry emails to coordinators, make-up artists, photographers,
and such. I can no longer count the number of pictures and inspirations that I
have saved on my laptop! I’ve created a hard copy of my wedding
planner/checklist, and even started my superb wedding binder! I’ve even started
doing my own DIYs!
So, for more
than five months now, I have been drowning myself in looking and preparing for
the best. I would always imagine the look and feel of the wedding day and of
the reception. Not a week goes by without me checking my wedding checklist and
planning how things would go on THE day.
Then came
last week.
Last Tuesday
we found ourselves facing a situation. I will not go into the details because
the story isn’t mine to tell. But to make a long story short, the situation
that we are now in has placed our wedding plans in the back burner because the
situation is something that is bigger and more important than our wedding, or
more important that anything, really. We are all praying as a family that
whatever this is that we are going through will pass and we know that the Lord
has a plan for each and every one of us.
When we both
found out about the situation, I told Honey that we can temporarily put the
wedding plans on hold so that we can focus on and pray for the current situation. We can always get married anytime and anywhere.
The
situation has also led me to a realization.
And this is
why I’m writing my confession.
I realized
that in the middle of the planning, the interviews, searches, meetings, lists,
hunts, reservations, and budgeting, I have forgotten the true reason and
meaning of a wedding.
I was overwhelming
myself in the search for the perfect people that I failed to remember that a
wedding is about the union of a man and a woman in front of God. That our
wedding is the symbolic ceremony that will start our married lives together.
That on our wedding day, I will vow to be a wife, partner, confidant, supporter,
best friend, and mother of our future children (yes, children). And that our
wedding day, is the day I will start serving my husband for the rest of his
life. That on our wedding day, I will cease to be just me and be one with my
husband, to whom I will dedicate the rest of my life to. I’ve forgotten than on
our wedding day, I will accept Kelvin as my husband, provider, and leader.
I have
failed to remember that the wedding is a Holy Sacrament gifted to us by God.
I have also
realized that Kelvin and I do not need two hundred people to be the witness of
our marriage. And that a wedding does not need all those number of pictures,
poses, flowers, chairs, tables, drapes, decors, looks, music, frames, letter
blocks, printouts, cards, songs and videos for it to be memorable.
I realized
that I do not need our wedding to be the most memorable wedding of the year. I
realized that our wedding has to be ONE of the most memorable days of our LIVES
as a couple.
We will not need a lot of people or things on our wedding day. All we need is the church, a place where we can celebrate our marriage, the people close to our hearts, and each other.
A wise woman once said, "The marriage is more important than the wedding."
We will not need a lot of people or things on our wedding day. All we need is the church, a place where we can celebrate our marriage, the people close to our hearts, and each other.
A wise woman once said, "The marriage is more important than the wedding."
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